I’m tired of being betrayed and trampled on.

I’m told that my page is looking at little ‘hungry’, so here’s an update on what I’m up to at present.

As most of you are aware, I moved to Melbourne in late January to pursue an opportunity at a very exclusive University; ‘The Australian College of the Arts’ (COLLARTS), there I am studying a BA in Creative Industries Management - Music Business. Its been a difficult move, I don’t really feel like I belong in Melbourne, its too fast paced for my liking and the people lack the life necessity of general manors. The first trimester was a battle; work ethic, gaining independence, socializing and a good mentality are a lot to take on at once, I think in the circumstances I haven’t done too badly, but there is still a lot I’d improve including; time management, responsible with my finances and overall effort into my work-load. 

I’m still unemployed, so far I have been relying on welfare payments and my father. My previous, somewhat spoilt lifestyle I once had has certainly had taken the back-burner permanently, any leisure spending is either on food or CD’s.

My mental well-being hasn’t been at its best since leaving home; I’ve seen my depression hit some all-time lows in recent years, my paranoia has become considerably worse and as a result of both of these things I’ve lost a lot of contact with friends and many friendships that were important to me have diminished. My general outlook on the situation is that to have something so good, you have to suffer in other regards. At the end of my two years in Melbourne, I’ll look back and realize what a good move it was and how much I will benefit. 

Despite the negatives mentioned above, exploring Melbourne at my own pace and seeing its hidden treasures has been something I have enjoyed immensely. My favourite place to visit is Federation Square in the early afternoon or late night, have an ice-cream on the steps and watch the city skyline lighten (depending on the day).

I’m now back in Adelaide, I have been here for a week and a half so far, with another week and a half remaining. Amongst the enjoyment of seeing Maria, my family and close friends, I have had my fair share of stress. It wasn’t a smooth return, with travel arrangements messing up at last minute, and problems with my accommodation in Melbourne. But when everything’s resolved, I’m sure I’ll have a smooth conclusion to my visit to Adelaide and a smooth return to Melbourne ahead of next trimester. 

That’s a very brief update of where my life is at, feel free to ask any questions if you have any. 

Thank you for your time!

Patrick.